Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Self Portrait Challenge - introduce.

xmas eve.
sayulita, mexico.
solo.



















Several years ago I agreed with much trepidation, and on a trial basis, to try an every other xmas plan in regards to custody of my boy. The first year was blissful as I shared every magical moment with PickleBoy at my side.
But ,
then ,
as the second year of the arrangement began to loom,
heavy clouds of anxiety gathered around me.
However would I make it through?

My Sister started in on me and didn't let up until I hit the 'purchase' button for my airplane ticket to Mexico. Just 1 ticket. I had been to Mexico many times before and I speak just enough of the language to get by, but,
alone?

I boarded the plane on December 22nd. Melancholy music poured into my ears as I stared out the little oval watching the world speed away beneath me, a few tears. Three hours later my taxi driver sped me the thirty five miles north of the Puerto Vallarta airport to the little village and we chatted about all sorts of things - he spoke no English. "Hey, maybe I know more than I think I do!" ran through my head as he popped open his trunk and showed me the toys he had bought to give to his children for xmas and beamed at me with a big beautiful smile...my bungalow had an outdoor kitchen and living room with a hammock...I walked through an old cemetary to get to the gentle beach...I bought handmade shrimp tamales off the back of a happy, wizened old man's four wheeler for lunch and ran into the ocean to wash my hands...I sipped tequila con hielo y limon that I'd bought at the liquor store as I watched the sun sink into the Pacific...I hiked forty five minutes through the jungle to find a huge deserted beach I had heard about...I made friends from Canada that I will visit someday...I ate 'street' tacos from the stand on the corner...I dozed away several afternoons lying in the sand and letting the salt dry and crystallize on my arms...and so much more.

I found some of me that I had not known before.
I liked what I found.









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14 Comments:

Blogger Teri M. said...

well, if you couldn't be with your little man, this looks and sounds as if it was an excellent alternative!

11:01 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love each entry you put into your blog! Again, what you have to say is so poetic

11:08 AM  
Blogger Anne Marie said...

I spent the first Christmas after my mom died in Mexico. That place has magic healing powers.

12:59 PM  
Anonymous Jessica said...

who knew you could find yourself in mexico

1:43 PM  
Blogger aliastriona said...

Mexico seems beautiful.
Thank you for the lovely words on my blog.

4:18 PM  
Blogger trudesign said...

Thanks for the music mondays, I will check back!

5:00 PM  
Blogger Sarah e.Smith said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and posting some comments! Love your SPT and posts! I will be sure to check out Music MOnday's...i just added your blog to my Bloglines subscriptions :)

It is nice to *meet* you and I look forward to reading more of your posts :)

6:53 PM  
Blogger lisrobbe said...

your post was so moving. I agree with terri m. this sounded like a nice alternative since you could not be with your little man. I will be coming back with anticipation to read your entries.

7:01 AM  
Blogger Kim Carney said...

it sounds like heaven! Wonderful post

8:42 AM  
Blogger dani said...

and this is why the SPT community is so cool.

very nice to have found you.

i love your story. it sounds amazing. travelling alone needs some bravery and especially at a time like xmas. good for you, and i'm so glad it worked out for you like it did.

3:16 PM  
Blogger madness rivera said...

Great story!
I have the same holiday arrangement with my oldest. *heavy, heavy sigh*

4:10 PM  
Anonymous bekka said...

i've got to get to mexico. the good part, like where you went. thanks for sharing.

7:08 PM  
Blogger fish said...

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8:11 PM  
Blogger Gypsy Alex said...

I got married in Sayulita! Well, at a lil resort outside town called Playa Escondida! :-) I'm enjoying your story xo

11:56 AM  

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