visitation. revelation. transformation.
It lay on the towel in shock for several perfect moments. Glowing beautifully in the sun as I extended my arms out beyond the glass that had blocked its freedom. I could feel the rapid-fire beat of its tiny heart in those brief moments and then as suddenly as you would suspect from such a creature it flew away, back out into the fresh shining morning and away, away on its journey.
I am the kind of person that needs to feel really trapped before I take an enormous life leap. Things need to be really bad. This time the really bad has been internal and existential in nature. Grand dissatisfaction with living the ‘supposed to be’ instead of the ‘meant to be’. I have been packed into this corner and furiously beating my wings for far too long. I have known that something needed to be done but have been afraid to find that open window.
The scales have finally tipped. My fear of facing these very old issues has become less frightening than the potential outcome should I refuse to face them. So I say out loud to you and the universe - I am leaving the work that I have done for nearly ten years. Work that was never ‘mine’ in the first place and has long since outlived its purpose.
“Hummingbird quickly dies if caged, caught, or imprisoned. Follow Sister Hummingbird and you will soon be filled with paroxysms of joy, and experience a renewal of the magic of living.”
Wish me luck, my friends.
I am giving myself permission to go out that window.
It is time for me to fly.
8 Comments:
Fly girl, Fly!
This is a lovely quote- and such an interesting and meaningful happening.
On Tuesday I was having a really tough day and I went to my Angel Cards for some inspiration- I looked at the pile and thought I need faith- And I pulled the card that read "Faith". I know that it was not just coinsidence (sp?), it was supposed to be- and I think that we make things like that happen more than we realize. I cried and then felt much much better... good luck to you my dear!
wow,i am really excited for you. you're journey is inspiration for a girl who often feels "caged".
all my best wishes for wondeful beginings
and helping hands along the way, like yours was for your friend the hummingbird :)
What a lovely story, good luck to you!
How exhilerating!! I love that this hummingbird came into your life in perfect timing. Hurray to you for leaving your work place, hurray!! I never looked back on my previous career of 10 years and have never regretted my new path.
this is the most beautiful post.
you.
are.
so.
brave.
inspiring.
wishing you the best. xo
I got chills reading this. So brave and so true of you. I send you big blessings and brave flight!
Woo hoo for you!!!!
Wow, that gave me tears. I am so excited for you. Now I need to take that leap too.
PS: what kind of camera do you have that could capture the bird in mid-flight like that? Seriously, I'm looking for a camera, and it has to have amazing zoom.
Oh my - how amazing that must have been! Congratulations and best wishes for your new endeavor.
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